What I should want.

Many of us get up in the morning because we should. We brush our teeth, take a shower, read the paper, because we should. Many of us go to work everyday because we should. It enables us to do the few ‘wants ‘ in our lives. It helps us buy Netflix subscriptions and pay the rent. But is that enough? Are we happy living with a compromise? Hold on, are we happy? And I do not mean the happiness you feel when you see a big cake or watch a new movie, I mean, truly happy? Are we happy knowing that the only people benefiting from our ‘should’ are in the four walls of our homes? Is it wrong to hope for more than that? More than just a lifeless routine motivated by pieces of paper?

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I want to get up in the morning because I want to. I want to put on music, dance, greet the neighbor’s dog because I want to, because it makes me happy. I want to reach out to as many people as I can, I want to go to work and benefit as many people as possible, I want to bring change to as many people as is humanly possible because helping people is what makes me truly happy. I want to be able to go to bed satisfied that I have been able to make someone want to wake up the next day. Just because it sounds like I’m dreaming too big doesn’t mean that it cannot be achieved. Nobody told us to dream within constraints, then why should our ambitions be?

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Sometimes ‘Should’ and ‘want’ have to be balanced out, some call them the conscience and the devil. I want to spend my time sketching, reading and hanging out with my friends, but in order to fulfill my ‘wants’ for the rest of my life, I should study. I want to pursue psychology and explore new places and meet new people and write books , but to be able to do that, I should work hard at Mathematics and get a decent score in my board examinations. If we ‘want’ to dream big, then we ‘should’ work hard towards fulfilling it, and that is a promise we have to make to ourselves. We are our own last hope. And what we want, should be our responsibility to satisfy.